infallibility complex

Serious post alert.

I totally scrapped my previous attempts to write about my Davao and Laguna trips because it now seemed like eons ago.
I'm in Punta Fuego as I write this (sometime Sept. 26). A bit rainy and cloudy but still enjoying the smell and the sounds of the sea. Being here to work seems like such a small price to pay. Now if only I could get to go and swim now. By the way, Punta Fuego, for all it's exclusivity, isn't all that great. The terrain and the view was gorgeous but the service absolutely sucked. The food was horrible, people moved so slowly and it didn't seem like they were at all used to functions- which added to my headache. Gotta keep some people happy, which wouldn't have been too difficult, had I been project leader from the start. Pffsh...
oh oops...the cute Spanish chef was just introduced to me. haha.

Of work and stuff: I've been to an interview with a foreign but fairly new company and they've been wanting to pirate me for their HR operations. The offer's pretty good and funny thing was, just when I was about to accept, the current company is now offering me a new position. I've always said that any counter-offer would make me feel bad since I'd always think they'd offer it to me so I won't leave. But I haven't given notice yet- haven't even polished my resume and here comes another offer. God naman talaga o. When He answers my prayers, somekinda confusing pa. I bet He's having a good chuckle up there. Somekinda choose-your-own-adventure ito, because let's face it, this is the rest of my life (partly) am talking about.

Well, there's the good and the bad-there's friendships and the possibility of new ones. There's loyalty and familiarity and there's broadening to new horizons. And for both, there's the learning of something new and making mistakes along the way.
I wish there was a huge neon sign that says "This Way, dumdumb!" so I can make good decisions. I only want not only what is best for myself but for what I can do to help my family. After all, I don't only live for myself. Most of all, I really want to be where I am meant to be, where God wants me to be. I mean, I could never go wrong with that, right?
The most difficult part though is consistently letting go, surrendering everything. What with my controlling personality, I still have a long-ways to go.
So, now, knowing all that, do you think am at peace? Hah.
Well, I try.