Kids, learn this and you’ll save up on potential heartbreak- or at least not have a total meltdown. If there’s one thing you’ll accomplish in your lifetime, let this be it: Learn how to fall in love without losing yourself. I’d like to think that I can finally tick that off my list, at least I hope so. Of course, knowing myself too, baka next month, I’ll have a totally different perspective. Hey, a girl can change her mind. For now, it’s been easy-breezy-steady. I don’t know where the source of this “steadiness” comes from, but am thankful and I intend to hang on to this feeling for a long time. Look at that- I knew too much drama makes for a lifetime movie. Nakakapagod din ang over-thinking ano. As I’ve always said, love shouldn’t be that complicated, it shouldn’t be a struggle to be together. I may seem idealistic- no, I’d like to think it’s a pragmatic way of looking at things. Simple lang ang buhay, if you want to be together, you find ways. (Parang a certain bank’s tagline hehe). One always has a choice. If not, then sorry, he/you were just not that into each other. Yeah, oo naman, ouch pa rin, but nevertheless, let go, move on and prosper, as melai says. Funny how people mess things up and make it all seem so complicated. Fine, minsan sablay nga naman ‘tong mga theories of love and life ko, but hey, it’s trying that makes the world go ‘round.
As I’m writing this, a couple is right across me and they’re so young, maybe 16 or 17. I think to myself, hay kiddos, what do you know about love? I say it without any derision, because it’s sweet and everyone goes through that. Just that I feel so old, but hey if wisdom comes with age, am there! :-)
I’ve just had a laid-back escape at the beach. The intent was to celebrate the New Year (again) by setting goals for the rest of the year and more thinking (sheesh, as if I need more :P). A pre-kung hei fat choi retreat that involved a bit of alcohol and good food in between laughing, swimming (trying to! The waves were mean :P), finding nice little stones (found a cute purple one), pictures, talking (sometimes silly nonsense, from me mostly haha :-)), sleeping in because of rain (Tita Sunshine was a no-show), and random pensive moods. Either I was in a great rose-colored-glasses mood, or the people there were really, truly nice. Pleasantville, Pinas-Island version. I discovered that alcohol seems to be a truth serum for me; I almost told-all and the aftermath of a tipsy stupor was a (thankfully short-lived) pounding headache, opening of the floodgates, then, more clarity. It was not, after all, an SP party. ;-)
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