damnbloggit

you are by far the most selfish, egocentric and bitchiest person i know. i never thought i'd use bitchy to call you, but there you are. ironically, we were close, inseparable. silly me to count on the fact that we became fast friends. apparently, we're not :close: enough. at the first sign of change, you turn around and go on your merry way, leaving me in the dust.

is friendship too much to hope for? why couldn't i count on you to listen, to be there when i have news? why can't i expect to say a simple thank you when i do stuff for you? simple appreciation would be way more than enough. is it to much to want to feel included?

but, be that as it may, i cannot change who you are. i cannot change the fact that you may just be incapable of love, of kindness. and i pity you. i’m not just saying that out of spite, because i really do. because despite your bravado and pomposity, you just have never felt loved; because i understand that you need to grow up and i understand, no matter how many damn times i flinch, i still freakin’ understand. god knows i have done nothing but understand. because of that, i will choose to cut down the strings, let you go; choose not to get hurt of imagined and real slights; i will choose kindness in response to cattiness, i will choose happiness in repayment of betrayal.