island girls in the house!

race against the machine

The problem with building dreams is that as I am writing and planning it down, someone is else is out there, actually doing it! What does one do with great dreams? When do I say, stop, it is not possible, or go on, everything’s possible if I want it to happen? There’s no one to encourage me and keep me to my dreams but there is also no one to pull me down back to earth.
Hay- I could go on and on with my excuses. Thing is, friends who know me well, know that I don’t accept excuses, I don’t make excuses and I sure as hell don’t want to live my life making excuses. Pffsh. As if I’m not busy and stressed enough. Hay never na, kaya ko ito.

I haven’t gotten around to making my new year’s resolutions. Yes, I still make them- I make resolutions all the time, new year or not. Since my new job last October, it has been a whirlwind of new things to learn, great new expectations and a great deal of responsibility. At times overwhelming but I always tell myself that everything happens for a reason- both the good and the bad. I just realized that most of the stress and anxiety I’ve had the past months was mostly due to putting off things and issues. Now I’ve learned that there truly is a time and place for everything- and everyone. I’ve learned not to say yes to everything and instead really pare it down to basics- I cannot please everyone and not be everything to everybody. At the same time, I learned that people are really selfish in nature- we are, after all, always looking out for ourselves but it takes a special grace to be able to transcend that, what with all our personal difficulties, to actually be selfless and help others.

So for now, here’s my new year’s wish for everyone:
1- Patience
2- The grace of selflessness
3- Hope
and dahil dapat may Ms.U na answer-
4- Love
~tarush!

christmas family tree

return of the comeback

The trip back to Cebu was one for the books- ala Amazing Race ito!
I had to host our office Christmas party last Friday and had a flight to catch that same night, not to mention the usual last minute things that people never seem to tire of. Is it just me or were we all running 'round like headless chickens?

The party was so much fun, too bad I really couldn't get into the mood since my mind and half of my ass was already on the way to the airport. Friday night+rush hour+Chrismas frenzy = panic mode. So here I was, all glammed up and trying to make chika to my long-time crush of all seasons, and I had to freakin' leave! Aaargh! He is just so gorgeous and smart, and sporty and nice, and artistic, and... and... hay.
Anyways, Anna and I went off to the MRT and lugged our (*ehem, MY) things and hauled our asses all the way to Taft station, met up with Kuya Al and we were merrily on our way to the airport, where, surprise, surprise! We all checked in as effortlessly as seasoned jetsetters.
The bigger news, however, was shoti winning the grand prize in the idol gig and whoopee! we get to share in the basket of goodies hehe. So proudness and kilig- shoti is now officially a celebrity! woohoo!

And now, am back in Cebu for a few days and it seems the same but not quite the same, it seems like I'm home but I'm not, it seems like I'm welcome but I'm not.

headless chicken

this is what i look like, running 'round like a headless chicken...whee. fun

taga-benta for a day!

...or two, or three

and maybe for the future?!

nooneenoo...

shirts, pants, or me?! :)

good times.

what it feels like

feeling lost even if i am home
seeing the truth, once again
even if i thought i've forgotten
how to
pushed back
in a place and time when
pain was more welcome
than pleasure
it feels like morning and midnight
all at the same time
it seems like you know
and see my soul
yet you choose not to recognize
it is knowing and thinking
and yet
not speaking of things
that we know as truth
and hide behind these masks
facades of joyful uncertainty

this, i know to be my truth
and my fallacy
my reality
until the time comes
for you to choose to stay
this is what
it feels like

bazaar II, day 2

christmas getting nearer...
list getting longer.


aack!

so much for starting my christmas shopping in september. pffsh.

i dream of

obscurity
invisibility
being ignored

needing someone
more than
they need me

because all this supergurl schtick
is getting quite old

and people don't believe me

and i'm tired of being serious
i don't want to be that girl
i don't want to grow up to be like her

bagay sa akin ang kulot***

did and re-did my hair...
fresh from the stylist's chair, who has blown my hair into the requisite long, shiny straight locks...

at shoti's birthday dinner, with friends. this is so not me.

and with some editing of the bangs, voila! is more like it :)

mathematics engerts

me, in a crazy, fuming mad state over a friend's distress at this jerk of a guy:
girl, two words- what for?!
no, it's three words- what the f*ck for?!

shoti, best in math, circa 3rd grade, with a rock to prove it:
eh, 4 words un eh!

hey! it's the thought that counts! sheesh :D

fun.

and in other news...

Daily singles love (by Astrology.com)-What your love life needs is some pointless adventure. So go out with someone you know is all wrong for you, but who is ever so charming and adorable. What's life without a little mischief? (Answer: extremely dull.)

duh. ano pa nga ba. bad boys are hard to quit on.